Okay, so we all know that I am pregnant. 30 weeks and a few days (unless you are my ob and then I'm 31 and some change). So, the fact that in roughly 9 or so weeks there will be a new addition to our family probably comes as no surprise to you.
Why then am I just starting to actually realize how my world is going to change? I did the same thing with Alice. Around this time, I was like, "I'm going to have a baby." People would look at me like I was insane. And when we drove away from the hospital, I looked at Sean and said, "They are going to actually let us take her home?!"
The reality of a new baby hits everyone at different times. For some, it is the first ultrasound, hearing the heartbeat for the first time, feeling the first movements. For me, it is when I have my baby in my arms. I know that probably sounds idiotic and that I'm not in tune with the baby I'm carrying. That couldn't be further from the truth. I'm very in tune with this baby.
I am getting super excited to meet him and see what he looks like. Will he look like Alice? Will he look like Sean? Me? Oh and the personality and temperament...will this be a happy baby? Or an irritable one? Will my baby be a good sleeper or follow in Alice's footsteps?
I'm also trying to figure out what to do with Alice when I'm in labor. After the baby is born, Sean can stay with her at night. I've never been away from her for more than several hours, so this will be a big adjustment for both of us. And the thought of two (or more) nights away from her is a bit daunting. I really hope I go into labor during the day and have the baby before bedtime, and then we only have to worry about what to do during the day. I have a feeling it will be the middle of the night and a bad snowstorm. Then who do I find to come stay with her? Because I sure won't be waking her up to take her somewhere. If that happens, then I guess Sean will be delivering the baby at home! This is really my whole big hang up. There are very few people I think she would sleep for...the babysitter and my sister. Plus she is used to sleeping with us, so who would be willing to let them sleep with them? And still wake up to care for her, if need be? I told Sean he may just have to stay with her and I'd have the baby by myself, but we can't do that. I guess we have a few weeks to figure out a few plans.