Tuesday, March 29, 2011


*Not a G, PG, or PG-13 rated post today. This is rated R, for adult language (or potty mouth, whatever you prefer).

I have been a bad blogger lately. Not awful, as I've managed to keep up with all of you and still comment. But still, I just haven't been able to find the time to post. That will get better soon, hopefully.

Anyways, I need to vent. It seems we have run into a bit of unfortunate luck lately. As in just the last couple of days.

As I said before, things have been tight financially. Sean hasn't received a paycheck in about 5-6 weeks. We were managing on my severance, until two weeks ago, when they messed up my check. Instead of getting paid for two weeks, I only got paid for one. So I paid the most important bill, and made arrangements for the end of the month for the rest. Now I find myself hoping and praying this check is correct. If it isn't, we will really be in a bad spot. We had money in savings, but that has dwindled away. I suppose I'd I had time, I could file our taxes and then we'd be okay, but I have yet to find time without someone attached to my boob, or that wouldn't find copious amounts of important paperwork interesting to draw upon or tear to bits.

On top of that, Sean failed his CDL driving test yesterday. Which really wasn't his fault. He had an asshole for the proctor, and he failed him because Sean asked a question to clarify something and the guy flipped out. So he was able to take it again today. After we scrounged around to find ANOTHER $100. And he failed again. Our conversation went like this:

Him: "I got fucked today!"
Me: "Was it good?"
Him: "Well, I almost passed, but fucked up this one incline."
Me: "Oh..."
Him: "Well I'm not pissed about it so much today. At least I really deserved to be failed today and not because I was being fucked!"

So I was thrilled thinking he passed his test and got some! Only to be bummed because we threw away another $100. And we will have to come up with another $100 for him to take it again. FUCK!

On top of that, he told me he thinks there is a blown head-gasket in the car. Which he confirmed on his way home, when the car died on the interstate. So I'm waiting on him to get home. With an about dead car. My car. Which means I do not have a vehicle. We are down to the truck. Which we cannot fit all four of us in. Unless he sits in the bed of the truck. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!

He is going to try to get the car fixed, but who knows how much that will cost and when it can be done by. Then there is the whole money issue again. I hope our lawsuit gets resolved quickly. Then maybe we can go pay cash for a car or mini-van.

So I have no car. I'm going to be stuck in this house for who knows how long. And all of our appointments I'm going to have to cancel. Ugh!

At least we have a delicious steak dinner, that is no longer a celebratory dinner, but a "it'll be alright" dinner. I think I'll be having a drink tonight too. It'll be alright and all work out. In the meantime, can you say a prayer that Sean passes his CDL test this next time? Without his paycheck, things will not be alright.

Oh, and my MIL and step FIL stopped by today. I was given thirty minutes notice. Do you know how little time that is when you haven't showered, picked up, vacuumed, done dishes, etc.? Needless to say, my house looked awful. I was mortified! First thing out of their mouths? "Did Sean not tell you we were coming?" Umm, no. It must have slipped his mind. And then they stayed for four hours. I had to cover up while nursing. Really? If it makes you uncomfortable, then go elsewhere. I shouldn't have to change my routine to accommodate you. Then my MIL gave me a DVD on "Behavior and Nutrition". Probably because Alice is a "typical" toddler. You know...she pitches fits, hits, scream, etc. And wouldn't you know it...SFIL gives Alice a new toy and then proceeds to try to put it up, only to have her pitch a fit. So he gives her a bag of granola. A WHOLE bag. What do you think happened? If you guessed, dump it all over the place, then give yourself a pat on the back!

So now I need to try go catch up on dirty dishes, laundry, picking up, and vacuuming up a bag of granola. And people wonder why a new mother's house is a disaster zone! Because people stop by practically unannounced!


Jenner said...

I am so sorry! My husband and I rarely have our heads above water. It seems like if we start to get ahead, we get a kick in the ass again. I hope things get better for you, know that I understand!

I can't wait to have another baby so I can nurse right in my MIL's face. In case I haven't mentioned, she is the DEVIL.

Mrs. Z said...

Oh girl...hugs, hugs, hugs. I mean, the MIL thing would be enough to push me over the edge, without all the money things too. Thinking of you guys, lots of positive thoughts your way!

The Tompkins Family said...

UGH!!! That post totally deserves a lot of "fucks"!!! So sorry you're having to deal with all that stress! HUGS!

Danifred said...

I'm so sorry. I'll be thinking and praying for you guys.

And the MIL situation would have made me flip! Who stays for 4 hours during an unannounced visit? Ugh.

LOG said...

Oh Sarah. I am so sorry. I hope everything works out with Sean. I hate having to cover up while nursing. When you are in someone else's home, fine. But in MY home I shouldn't have to be uncomfortable. I'm thinking of you guys.

Megan said...

Oh Sarah! Big hug to you! You are a brave woman for not "politely" asking your in-laws to leave when they started to make you uncomfortable and you had to cover-up to nurse...

Sucks about the driving test- thoughts and prayers sent your way...

Carrie27 said...

Oh yuck this is just not fair. The shitty luck needs to leave and bring you something positive. Fingers crossed that Sean passes!

April said...

I'm so sorry, Sarah. I get it though, all of it. Money sucks. That's why I'm only staying out or work for 6 (maybe 8) weeks. We can't really afford to be without my check. :-( I hope Sean passes his CDL this time...fingers crossed!

CanadianMama said...

Thanks for visiting my blog - I love new bloggy friends :) I'm following you now!

And I'm SO SO SO sorry about all the bad luck lately. It's hard enough to have a new baby; I imagine you are quite stressed! Hope things turn quickly!

daisybv2 said...

Oh no Girl I am so sorry I know how tough it can be with a money issue. I am so sorry :( I will pray that Sean Passes his CDL and that your check comes in right this time.

Hang in there... it will get better.

And your MIL should have been cleaning your house nad helping you with stuff... if she was gonna stay 4 hours... But I know mine wouldnt have my hubby would be waiting on her.